2011- Year unfolded and worked through as below:

I started working on my missions to complete my book . I am trying to get more time to do my best. My son started his work in Lithgow as a dentist in January.

Healing Practice: In full swing to the needy people of my society and exploring more into deeper serious sicknesses. My venture into Crystal Healing also moved a step forward. In Sept 2011, tried Hypno Therapy sucessfully on a patient and still working on for a cure.In another instance, I had a thought pattern in discovering an apparatus for the Pranic Healing using a cosmic color projecting device; which according to my angel would be used by all future healers.( It said you have made it in the past, you can make it again...)

During my Nov-Dec trip to India on vacation, there were occasions when I met my classmates viz. Dr. Sunil Sherlaker and Anantha at Bangalore.

I did also meet ex-Ducab friends Prem Kumar and Roy Nigli.

One of my days I went to Pondicherry to visit Sri Aurobindo Ashram. Happened to get blessed by an elephant in a near by Ganesh temple; see link here.

I could enjoy my holidays with the books: Steve Jobs(ibook), A Search in Secret India by Paul Brunton,Ramana Maharshi by Arvind Sharma, The Secret of the Veda bySri Aurobindo.

Few photos of the year 2011:

1. New Zealand trip of Aug 2011 wiht Anup Bhai & family, Mohan Bhai & family and Surendran Bhai and family.

2. Nitin & Purvi with us Auckland

3. Sky Tower top

4. Meera seeing us off at Auckland airport

5. Shiv doing a filling on his mother

6. My Chennai Seminar

7. Kannur-7 house after the maintenance in Dec 2011

8. Bangalore catch up with Sunil and Anantha

9. My mom, Sanjeev and family along my sister Saroja +son Sonaal.

 

29th Aug 2012 the day I was hospitalised:

I am trying here to sum up the series of incidents that I recollected after nearly 15 days and a pressing urge that I must update my webpage with these phenomenal thought patterns.

Early morning as I woke up, I was feeling a discomfort and as if I had not slept enough, the pillows were not soothing enough and as if I had some sort of choke in the chest.Recent Indian visit had equiped me with an Ayurvedic pill meant for gastric formation and thought that it should solve the problem.I tried to get ready for work and decided to have an A sprin as I had by then felt a minor continious pain in my left shoulder.The time must have been 3:30 am; and as I am working in the Airport my duty being an early one, scheduled to be there by 4:30 am on the day, I pushed off to work. Hardly driven 10 km from home, near the Stockland Mall, my mind set up changed drastically and forced me to stop on the side and something compelled me to turn back home and get to the hospital as Airport is quite a drive and was cumbersome to drive till airport and more of medical attention was sought. I had to communicate to my work by phone that I would not turn up; but the phone lines to the office were not picked unusually.

I made my way back home, changed my shirt and at this point of time, Vilma asked me what was wrongh and why am I back? I mentioned to her that I would see a doctor in Blacktown Hospital. She jumped out of the bed as she got the shock that something has really gone out of control or else I would never opt hospital. She woke up Vijay (son-in-law) and he drove me to the Blacktown hospital. The time being 4:15 am.Enroute, I called my friend Dr. Sreejith who apparently works there and checked if he was around on a night shift or something that might help me catch up faster with the admission formalites. He was in another hospital but he advised to get to Blacktown hospital and he would call some one and extend help and would see me in few hours.

As I furnished my information in five minutes at the friendly Emergency desk, I was called in to check ECG and other quick tests which revealed that I must be admitted for more tests and that I had already undergone a minor attack . I was told the enzymes that triggered the attack was visible by a blood test and the second test following would reveal if the condition is under control and next course of action.On these findings, the doctors decided to continue for angiography and then take it from there.

At the afternoon,14:14 hrs, the angiogram commecnced and finished by 15:09 hrs. Prior to this procedure,I was explained by the doctors that if they can fix the problems, they would do ballon technique to remove the blocks or else they have to operate me for a bypass. Now I was thinking, I never thought that it was an attack, I came just for a check up and it is no that serious. I was insisting the the doctor if it was necessary for an angiograph at all as I am feeling ok after the pain killers I was on! The doctor mentioned, it is bit serioous than what I thought, so illy willy I agreed for the angiogram and then see what is the blockage like.

The result of angiogram was to establish that there were 3 vessel blocks and the by pass was the only solution! The time stood still for me!!

For the following days, I was awaiting for a bypass surgery in another hospital where I would be funded by my health insurance. The Westmead Private was the hospital in question and an early date to get admitted was being sought by the Blacktown Dr. Choong. My days in the Blacktown hospital for the transfer to the other one was the most anxious moments that I am trying to paint. One hand, family and friends' visits and each one would be asking me for the date of transfer and each time it would remind of a crucial day when I would be cut-open and I wondered what would be my fate? I was not so sure if all these surgeries are a 100% success and what if they could not revive me etc. Contingency thoughts as bad as a funeral of mine would picturise in my mind. Mind would not rest in peace.

On 31st Aug, I was feeling all alone and thought that I must pray and must put myself in the hands of the Supreme power, the Creater and must count on Him. I decided to do my chants of Hare Krishna in full swing. I started my meditation techniques which for several years of my past were helping me in various other matters for gettting concentrations and mental energy.

Then it came to mind that all my freinds and relations should also pray for me as the power of prayer multiplies when done by many people from various levels of my life-cycle. To trigger this from the hospital bed, I shot emails to all my friends and classmates and relations for they should pray for me and that email brought me replies and strength which made me bold to face the day ahead.

2 nd Sep: Father's day gift! I was taken by surprise when in the afternoon at the hospital bed Shiv presented me a MacBook Air- latest version on behalf of Vijay, Shilpa and himself. For a fraction of a second, I was lost. I was not sure if I would ever use it as my conscience brought negative feelings that I would not live to use it....I could not thank him for the gift as I went deep and deep in the negativity.

4th Sep 2012 was the date meant for a transfer to the Westmead Private where I would be operated on the 5th Sep by Dr. Robert Costa. My shifting to Westmead Private was in an ambulance on a stretcher. It was mu first ambulance journey in life. I was able to gaze at the open blue sky above while transfer was taking place from the buildings and wondered if I would ever see these blue beautiful sky again? The cloud patches looked strange and appeared like shiny cotten balls that were suspended for ever.

I had to condition my mind that nothing would go wrong. I was in the safest hands and this is a common surgery these days and so on. The visitiors who came would remind me of these take-it-easy steps. I recited Hare Krishna Maha Mantra in my mind to replace the bad thoughts and in between Amma's special mantra which she gave some four years back while her Sydney visit also was being chanted. These two mantras gave me enormous mental stability and confidence.

On 4th Sep, I felt an urge that I must speak to my mother in India whom I did not want to say what is happening, but atleast I wished to hear her voice.

On 5th Sep, I was thinking of a pendulam that would move to one side and the other and to me it was "Yes" and "No". I would be either living or dead. My thoughts were just revolving around "yes and no" and became a deep thinker and then I would visualize that I was travelling to religious places in India such as Guruvayur, Muthappan, Andalur temple, family dieties like Puthukkudy and Thondachan, Potten Kav,Amma and many Yogis especailly of Vihangam Yoga. I had thoghts of my childhood Banaras trip(Kashi), many old churches and cathedrals that I must have visited,Pazhani,Shabarimala and so on. I had Hanuman chalisa with me and I started reciting that for I loved it in my days at Auckland. I even my death wish in my diary on the date 6th of Sep that what should be the funeral plans and that ISKCON should be authorised for the final cremation. I wrote it to avoid talking to my people who will feel unhappy thinking my mental condition; further to avaoid any confusion as they will any way spot my diary and take it as my wish!

My operation was scheduled for 14:00 hrs or so. They took from the ward for the operation theatre just when I finished my Hanuman chalisa. I insisted Vilma she continues this till I return. I had gained a strong positive feeling by then that I will return healthy. I had not finished my pending work in life yet, time was too short, I must gallop now and finish my work of publishing two books of mine, etc.

At the adjacent room of the Operation room, I was waiting for two hours as the earlier operation was in progress. I was wondering how to communicate to my family outside that there is some delay. The anesthetist gave me a doze and then I sure I saw huge lights over my chest and that is all; could not remember anything that went on. Later date, Shilpa told me that the Surgeon met them after the operation and mentioned that everything went on well; would be on ICU on ventilator for the next day.

6th Sep: I woke up as a female voice called my name out and instructing me to open my eyes. The time was 10:00 am and visiting hour. She said my family is here to see me and then I saw Vilma and Shilpa at my bed side and I welcomed them and then I got assured that I am alive and out of the dangers. Shiv was also around after a few minutes and was asking me how I felt?. I knew I was on tubes and oxygen and I was only wondering when I was orally nil from the previoous night, how I manged to survive without any food and I realised, oh the tubes are feeding me in liquids.It was ICU and I could see a glimpse of other patients of same operations in my neighbourhood.

At one point of time, while Shiv and Vilma was near by, I could feel in my ears big sound of my own heart beat and also warmth in my ears. I yelled at Shiv to call the nurse Jack. She came running and then I was normal as she reset some gadgets. I thought that was my ultimate as if my system failed. That was too scary.

On 7th Sep I was moved to the seperate single room #98 in the early hours after I was given a shower and shave by a male nurse from Nepal. He was a nice gentleman and thanked him for his concern.

In the room #98, I had to be monitored for the rest of the days until the 12th Sep for my discharge. I had difficulties in getting proper sleep, I had to walk 10 minutes with the Physio every day and small on breathing sessions. My left lung had beed weak and I had to use an apparatus to suck air into my lungs which was challenging enough. I had lost the taste of food on the second day and could not stand any food smell. I survived on ornage juice and apple juice. I would not like coffee either. I was insisted to eat as my hemoglobin dropped. I was scheduled for a blood transfusion. (I later came to know that it was not required as I had started making my own blood)

Dr. Costa would visit me daily early morning and would say, that I am getting better and would talk about the discharge soon.The Physios did their best to convince me that I am doing well and take me for a stroll twice daily and trusted I am better each day.The phylum was supposed to be taken out by coughing and the process was painful as each time I would cough the chest would pain. I was given a so called Teddy-bear which was a small pillow to hold on to my chest to absorb the shocks when I coughed.

On 8th, 9th,10th and the 11th nothing much happened than my progress in loosing my weight due to excervive fluids in body. My wieght came down to norml 69 kg on this day.

12 Sep: Discharged from the hospital at the early morning itself and by 9:00 am Shilpa, Vijay and Chandratten(my good neighbour who had undergone by pass 4 years before) had come to collect me and we were off home.

The sunlight I was seeing was after so many days. I was happy inside as I am going home. But still there were negetive thoughts keeping me very dull. I could n't talk much as I wanted no strain. I felt comfortable when I was alone.

On arriving home, I was using my sofas as the best location to see the TV and use the room heater.I went to my back yard saw that the new flowers were blooming as I was away in hospital; they were pink and brilliant. Around 11:00 am, I thought I must see my pool. The worry of my pool started right while I was at the Blacktown hospital as the Baracuda had stopped running then. I just decided to see the pool taking small steps as I could and there it was. Water though clear had lots of leaves. Chandratten and Vijay did their best to start the Baracuda under my directions, but in vain. They however managed to clear all the leaves, which gave me a hope that the following day I would kick start the Baracuda.( Until the weekend, Shiv managed with Vijay to fix the Baracuda up and running again. This solved the pool problem for ever as they did to my heart!)The pool in the past, I used to clean leaves, see it is maintained to blue colour water always, chlorinated and salted for any day it should be fit basis; but due to absence from home, it was neglected and a tension was built up(very unnecessary though) that was playing in my mind.

If you ask me what are the other tensions that I might have had? Basically nothing of any magnitude.I did think of establishing the Industrial Chemical business which required a lot of field work and meeting potential customers and I had been busy past weeks where remarkable contacts were made. Quotations were given and orders were in the pipe line and my aim was to allocate 50% time on a daily basis for A-Z Buyers.

One is quite sure now that how lucky I am to return to my people and friends and the homeward journey. The day in and out I thank God for the extension of life that He bestowed on me.

I have an ambition to see my mother in Feb 2013 and tell her what really happened to me and get her blessings. I also wanted to tell her that what I suffered was the same what my father suffered in 1972 while at M.C.T.E, Mhow. Then, there were no by passes, only medication and bed rest; of course he lived for than 22 yrs after that condition.

I am proud of my family and my siblings who called me and checked my progress on a daily basis and more than ever prayed and brought me a feeling that how concerned they were.

My recovery procedure is six weeks rest at home with walking for 15 mts daily twice. Use the apparatus for deep breathing and warming exercises prior to walk which consists movement of hands and legs without much strains. After six weeks, I will be attached to Norwest hospital for more stronger exercises which I have yet to see.

How much Alcohol ? Some friends aksed if I used to consume a lot of alcohol? I woud say that I had always controlled conception of a peg minimum and a couple maximum. I had always temptations when I invited friends home for party, when good food was around for extra pegs but not daily. Week ends were my liberty to have a peg of whysky or bacardi . I am sure I am not addicted yet and just a "small" makes me happy.

I want all my friends and relations who are watching this to sign my guest book by clicking "Shashidharan.com" pinkish button on the top and sign my guest book on that page bottom. This will help me understand how much you care for me!. Also thank you for the prayers you did for me at this hard times. God bless!

Week 1	19-09-2012
Week 2	26-09-2012
Week 3	03-10-2012
Week 4	10-10-2012
Week 5	17-10-2012
Week 6	24-10-2012

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

/2/2015: Trip to India via Dubai.EK415 along Raghu Bhai. Trip to Burjuman centre after many years of gap. Met ES Suresh, Suresh and Shobha. Flight to Calicut from DXB.

7/2/2015: Visit to Vallikkav to see Amma. Sreejith’s wedding function to attend. On 9th reached Dharmadam.

12/2/2015: ShekeranMoothachan passed away.

13/2/2015: Vilma arrived and picked from airport.

22/2/2015: MRAC classmates joined for a boat trip to Dharadam Island and a reunion.

25/2/2015: Puthur trip. On 27th met Wilfred Lobo after ages of missing.

8/3/2015: ITI alumni contacted.

9/3/2015: Guruvayoor trip. 10th I had a walk with Vilma’s dad in the side roads to Meethlapedia and back. ( 6.pm)

16/3/2015: Flight at eve to DXB from Calicut. 17th reached DXB and met Sunny Lincoln, Nath and Girish. Burj Khalifa sky trip etc. 18th Vilma’s old school Gulf Model staff met. Met Sathar in Abu Dhabi. Tour of Grand Mosque. Reached Sydney on 21st.

13/5/2015: New job started at MASIMO.(Till 21/3/2015)

22/5/2015: New Apple watch received from Shiv today.

9/6/2015: Shiv made a trip to India-Dharmadam. (Returns on 17/6/2015)

1/9/2015: Shiv bought his first BMW sedan

14/11/2015: Melbourne trip with Anup Bhai to attend Dr. Brian Weiss.

16/11/2015: Shiv’s Australian Citizenship.

3/12/2015: Sweety delivers a baby girl.

31/12/2015: Mid night New Year celebration at Rad Nair’s.